Let me tell you about my life.
Growing up, I was always involved in church. I went to Sunday School, VBS, Wednesday night church, Kid’s Camp, Youth camp, Youth events, and now that I am in college, I am still involved in church activities when I am home on the weekends. So I have always known about Jesus and who he was. I’ve always read my Bible and prayed and worshipped. I even walked down an aisle and got baptized when I was like 8. If you know me, you know I have never, ever been rebellious…I have never done anything outrageous…I am not a problem child…I genuinely have tried to live my life for Christ……………
Of course, throughout my life, I have had spells of doubt and worry about my salvation. And when those times would come, I would pray about them and think they were fixed, and move on with my life. I would continue to read my Bible, go to church, and live my life the right way. And my life went on.
————> fast forward to about a few months ago, I was having another time when I was doubting my salvation again. Except this time, it didn’t go away. It kept reoccurring…and reoccurring…and reoccurring. I began praying about it, but nothing was really happening. Well, 2 weekends ago, we had our annual county DNow. I was originally not going to attend because I am a college student and didn’t feel like I needed to intrude on my youth group. But, there was some problems and some of our leaders could not be there and they needed help, so I ended up going. I got to stay with the 7th and 8th grade girls. (Shout out to them! They kept me laughing and were a ton of fun to be around!!!) But anyways, like I said, I was not going to go, but that just goes to show that God is going to get you where he wants you if you’re meant to be there!
I went into DNow weekend with a hungering and a thirst for more of God. I simply just wanted more. So I had a clear heart. And that is EXACTLY what I needed. On Saturday, there are 2 worship services held: one in the morning and one at night. During the morning service invitation, I just felt weird. Like, I knew something was wrong. I knew it had to do with God too. So I am standing there, singing and worshiping, and I just start feeling SICK. And I mean sick. Like about to puke. (gross I know…but just hold on). So I had no doubt God was dealing with me. But, I did not do anything about it. I just continued to stand there and let God work on me. With me struggling with all that, the service eventually came to a close and I was still feeling sick.
After the service, my youth group went over to our family life center to eat lunch and we had a few mission projects we were going to complete for the afternoon. All throughout the day, while everything was going on, I still felt that feeling. I KNEW something was wrong and it bothered me literally all day long.
The night service finally came and it was a great one, let me just tell you! The SAME thing that happened to me during the morning service happened to me again. Actually, it never left me. But it was back, and super strong. Once again though, I did nothing about it and the service came to a close. Then we were back at our host homes. The feeling was STILL there ya’ll. And I finally just had to do something about it. So I hopped in my car and went to talk with my youth minister and his wife. They prayed over me and left the room and I got down on my knees and I asked to the Lord to save me.
For so long I had felt empty, and I knew something was missing. But I thought I had Jesus so I didn’t pick up on that that was the thing I was missing. But I finally saw that Jesus was what I was missing from my life. I gave my life to Christ on February 6, 2016 at like midnight, and as soon as I did I felt that peace that passeth all understanding. It was so real and so amazing and such a GOD thing! And now, I am a child of God and heaven is my home! AHHHHHHH I could just shout!
I told ya’ll all that because I want you to know that God is still in the saving business. I’m so thankful that he never gave up on me. My life is forever changed. And I’ve never been happier! I also want you to know that if you feel like something is missing from your life, that you need to examine your life and heart and make SURE you have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. Because, without him you will never feel full or happy. He still saves. His love for you and me is UNBELIEVABLE. And he wants you to live with him for forever!
God is so amazing and I will forever serve him!