THIS A VERY LONG BLOGGGG BUT ITS WORTH READING!!!!!!!!
I have been extremely busy these last few days and honestly I just haven’t really known what to write about! Like I have stated a few times in my earlier blogs, I want the Lord to put an idea or “topic” in my head before I actually sit down to write. If not, there’s no point in me writing anything! So today, after busy, busy, busy, I finally feel like I have something to write about!!! I hope all of you had an AMAZING Christmas! I am very sad that it’s officially over, but I had such a great Christmas! I am so blessed and I am so selfish all the time. This is something personal that I am going to work on! I thank the good Lord for all He has blessed me with and continues to bless me with every single day! Thank you Lord for who you are!
Have you ever felt like your Christian walk is the same as a crazy roller coaster? It’s like one week you are so on fire for God and you can see what He’s trying to tell you, and then the next week it’s like He may have taken a vacation? My Christian walk is one like that! Sometimes I feel so close to God and like I can just reach up and touch Him. But, then I turn right around and I feel like He is not even there and I start doubting. I have figured out that doubt and worry are what the devil uses to get me off my path towards Christ. Those two things are my weak points! Pray for me in those areas of my life please!! But anyways, so have you ever felt like that in your walk with Christ? Well, I’m just going to be personal for a minute, I have been praying that the Lord would reveal Himself to me and just let me know that He is there and working in my life. But, I feel like I’m not getting any feedback. But, it is most likely my fault! I’m trying to open my eyes to see as Christ would and look for Him because I KNOW He lives inside of me, so he’s there…….I just have to find Him!!! It’s just like the game of Hide and Seek! Christ is ALWAYS there no matter how I feel or where I go! Sometimes though, He may be being quiet, so I will seek after Him more and grow stronger in Him though trying to find Him! Ever thought about that? I JUST thought about that as I typed that very sentence! I JUST figured out my own problem in the midst of writing this blog! Isn’t that amazing how Christ just spoke to me in this very moment?!!!!! That’s simply amazing to me! Okay so I figured out my answer, but does your walk of faith feel like a crazy roller coaster? I am going to share with you something The Lord showed me while I was sitting in a gym tonight!
So I said I couldn’t see the Lord? Well, I’m just pure stupid and blind as a bat!! So, the day after Christmas all the girls in my family, (grandmother, aunts, mom, sis, and girl cousins) went to New Orleans for a girls weekend! We stayed at a very, very fancy hotel, got to shop, ride in a taxi, get Starbucks every morning for breakfast, and go exploring though this massive hotel! It was such a blast! The occasion for us going was we went to drink hot tea together! We got dressed up, got to eat little finger foods, try 2 different kinds of tea (vanilla is the best by the way), and course, take a TON of pictures because that’s what girls do isn’t it? Well, we do anyway!! It was so much fun to have a “get-away-weekend” with the girls! Today we got back and as soon as I stepped foot in my house, I got ready and went to another Christmas with my boyfriend’s family! Which was also such a blast!!!! I also went with him to play basketball with some of his friends! Now don’t worry, I did not actually play! I would just embarrass myself!!! So, I sat in the bleachers, which, having nothing really to do, led my mind to just think about anything and everything! Soooooooo this is what I thought and I really believe the Lord put these thoughts into my head!
I have felt like the Lord wasn’t hearing my prayer but He has! And he Has revealed himself to me!! I have been EXTREMELY blessed with PEOPLE in my life! Like sitting in that gym, I just started thinking about all the people I am in contact with! I have an amazing family!! My parents are GREAT Christian examples for my sister and I and have raised us to LOVE Jesus above all else!! And I cannot be any more thankful that I have such a great home-life! And the rest of my family is great too! Spending the weekend with my grandmother and all the girls was such a blessing!! Family needs to grow! Being able to just go off and do nothing but be together and spend time with my precious maw maw was so warming to my heart and I am thankful the LORD gave us the opportunity to go! My older cousin and I got to opportunity to stay up late with all my younger cousins and just give them Godly advice about life, high school, and college! I didn’t notice that the Lord was moving but he was! All I had to do was sit back and actually LOOK for Him because he was definitely there and I am so thankful!!!
Like I stated above, as soon as we got back today I was headed to my boyfriend’s house to do Christmas with his family!! Yet another time the Lord showed me how blessed I was!! I have a unique boyfriend! I say “unique” because he is most definitely a one of a kind boy! He is a Christian, he’s sweet, always happy and willing to help anyone, always has a smile on his face, and he helps me in my walk with Christ! I am THANKFUL to be able to say all that about Him! The Lord blessed me with the BEST there is!! And i am thankful for his family! They are so loving and they all love the Lord! I am so thankful the Lord has brought all of them in to be apart of my life! I never knew how blessed I was with my family and another family who is pretty much my second family! So if any of you are reading this, thank you ALLLLL for the joy you have brought to my life!!! I thank the Lord for all of you!!!!
There’s also another group of people coming to my mind as I continue to type this long blog (sorry it’s so long I just have a lot to say). This group of people is probably ones I take for granted all the time. They are MY FRIENDS!! The awesome people who sit at my lunch table!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! I cannot tell you how great it is to have Christian friends to go through life with!! I don’t know what I would do without y’all!!! And one of these amazing Christian friends is going to be my roommate in college and I just can’t wait to see how the Lord works through us and where He takes us! I have so many people in my life that I have been blessed with and i have never really noticed….until tonight!! So anyone who has played a role in my life; THANK YOU!!!!
Okay, so I know that was a little much, but here’s my point. Being a Christian is NOT easy, but it’s not supposed to be!! Was Jesus’ life easy? No, it wasn’t! And ours won’t be either! BUT, with Christ by your side, you can conqueror anything; literally!! And yes, sometimes you will feel like you can feel Him one second and the next it’s like He’s gone, BUT remember its just like the game of Hide-and-Seek! He is ALWAYS there; He may just being quiet so you will look more for Him!!! For me, I had to look around and notice how blessed I was with people in my life!!! Try stepping back and taking a skim over your life and who plays a role in it!! I hope this blog made sense! I may have just rambled! Sorry if I did!!!! Make disciples, live for Christ, and notice how blessed you are!!!!